Life with two

I am loving having two little girls.  Even with Abygail only being two months old I can already start to see her personality.  Adelynn has been the best big sister, we’ve been so proud of how well she has adjusted.  I have to admit though that it has been a harder adjustment than I expected.  The first month was ok because my mom was here and she helped with everything and the newness of having two was still exciting.  Those who know me well know how poorly I do with lack of sleep.  I could never be one of thoe people who worked night shift or stay up till all hours of the night.  Even in university I was in bed most nights before 11 (thankful to God for a roommate who was the same-thanks Callie!!).  So functioning on 4-5 hours of sleep a night is almost impossible for me.  Needless to say it is when my fleshly side and Satan starts to tempt me full on.  My patiences, love and self-control diminish and selfishness and irritation come out at everyone in my way unfortunately.  I have been reminded lately of how selfish I am and how much I need God to give me strength.  Why is it that I forget “He has given me everything I need for life and godliness in Him.”  I also forget that this IS ONLY TEMPORARY!! Before I know it Abygail will be sleeping well and on a schedule, not only that but be walking and talking and they will both be in school.  Why do I look at the immediate things and forget what is permanent and lasting- being a mom and wife the role I have to demonstrate Christ love and servanthood to my family.  I am here to make an impact on them and need to take every opportunity to provide an example my girls can follow.  Praying for humility and the ability to recongnize and rely on God all sufficient grace and power in my life every moment of everyday even when both children have been crying all day there are toys all over the floor laundry to be done and dinner burning in the kitchen :).