Got to talk to the girls today & the are doing great! Having fun & being completely spoiled by Mimi & Pop! It did my heart good to hear there sweet voices & see their precious little faces. I almost lost it though when Abygail asked about 3 times when we were coming home & adelynn asked how our new home was. So thankful that despite the distance they completely trust our love for them & are secure in sharing us with their new brothers right now. They are such big, loving, & understanding sweethearts. Cannot wait to give them HUGE hugs!
Today was spent sightseeing. We went to a jewelry market where there must have been over 100 stores all selling pearls, jade, amber, crystals, silver, & any color bead you can imagine! It was fun to look around but felt rushed. We did get something special to give the girls & our future daughter in laws on their wedding day. After that we went to a museum where local artist were painting with there hands & pretty porcelain that's unique to Guangdong. It was nice & the wood carvings were pretty. I didn't see too much as the boys mainly ran in the courtyard.
I'm struggling to know what is just testing & control of a typical 2 year old & what is fear & complete insecurity from my son. We want to deal in wisdom, love, & trust building. It's so difficult & counter intuitive to give into a child whining. Some of it completely does just feel like trying to battle for control, but really wanting to let go of that need to control & trust someone else. I would say the majority of time now that both boys are completely engaged & playing & loving on us appropriately. This is amazing really! God is good. I know there are some habits I just can't start here because there is no way I'll be able to continue them at home. This is hard because the last thing I want is to create a lack of trust! Please pray that in all the moments we can we establish really positive, loving, encouragement by hugging, touching, kissing, holding, praising them. Right now if I hold Elijah at all while we're out of our room Isaiah starts getting really upset. This is difficult because it's keeping me from bonding with Elijah & also I know it's not realistic that I won't need to hold Elijah, Abygail or adelynn at times too. Even if I reassure him & try to hold his hand or touch him while holding Elijah he won't calm down nor will he let Matt hold him. This happened 2 times today & both times I had to just try my best while holding Elijah & him crying because Matt couldn't hold Elijah. Please pray for me to have wisdom & insight into his fears. It's hard.
2 comments:
Praying for all the hard parts & praising Father for all the wins!!! You're really doing great friends... half way home already!!! -Joy
Praying your husband doesn't get sick! I couldn't go there! I get sick so easily. Hang in there it will better with each day! I am sure lots of it is just testing the boundries!
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